Confidence or Hubris?

My last market was by far my biggest one in terms of visitors, sales, and visibility. I feel like I’ve overcome a lot of my concerns regarding this business endeavor by participating in such a large event. Maybe I’m becoming complacent or dropping the ball on something that I won’t even realize until I’m at my next event, but right now I’m feeling prepared and confident.

I told my family that I have no worries about this next event and frankly my husband was shocked. He’s extremely supportive but to him it felt like a complete 180. My last market scared the crap out of me and leading up to it I wasn’t sleeping well and my stomach was in knots. This time around I’m almost eerily calm.

Perhaps my relaxed nature comes from the fact that besides business stuff I have a truly crazy amount of other things going on in my life. We are preparing to sell our house and move an hour north to be closer to family and the sheer amount of moving parts to this process is overwhelming.

Buying real estate is stressful alone, but adding to that selling a condo and a house while also trying to navigate signing our eldest up for elementary school is a LOT. I’ve described my current mental state as an “undercurrent of stress”.

It almost feels like I can’t justify worrying at all about the next market given the amount of stress the rest of my life is experiencing. If I allow myself to worry about business stuff I might become entirely too overwhelmed and freeze. I need to keep up my momentum on all things in order to survive these next 2-3 months without completely losing my mind.

All of this to say, I’m feeling confident going into this next event. I don’t know if it’s because I can’t afford to spiral, or if it’s that I’m more practiced at selling my work and talking to strangers. Either way, it’s sort of a relief to not be worried about Art in the Park in Berwyn.

If you are in the area, stop by and see me at my most confident. It’ll be weird.